Tuesday, February 23, 2010
the times we had spend tgt.. always memories.. i nv gonna forget u.. i will be strong to move on.. to get what i want.. face my dad prob.. i wan face it myself.. i dun wan to pull u in.. i cannot be selfish.. i know this day gonna come.. sooner or later.. wan to let u know i am serious with u.. luving u is the greatest thing happen in my life.. i let u go doesnt mean i dont luv u.. becox i luv u so much i dun wan hurt u.. i really need time to convince my dad.. and i must.. i really hope after i convince my dad i can get back to u.. do whatever it takes to have u.. u know i wan to see the future with u.. u know i cannot do without u.. ur shadow now is my strength to move on.. the things we gone thru i hope u remb.. wait for me plz.. i nv give up on u.. i still pin high hopes on u..
hope by that time i come back u see the change in me.. and what i done for u.. if i not serious with u i just put aside everything already.. not even convincing my dad.. that's all i can say.. l luv u.. more than anything else.. unconditional luv.. adawiyah luv wanrais.. thats my promise..
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12:14 PM
Sunday, February 21, 2010
praying every now and then ytd seems to help so much.. finally this thing is getting of my chest.. praying for the best n smooth path ahead.. seriously.. now i believe more and more in him and nobody but him.. he makes my life now soooo bright.. when its dark he make it bright again so that i could walk properly again..
last few days were the worst days for this yr i guess.. ytd get to see luv.. wanna thank god for that too.. he accompanied me n makes me strong again.. talk things out.. really feel so stupid n dumb since mj session till now.. heard 'i luv u' from his mouth again the feeling is soo contented.. when 3 days i dun heard from him i feel so uneasy n down... so used to hear this 3 words everyday.. suddenly dun get to hear.. the world seem crushing down on me.. but now n so far its ok already.. but asking myself when i get to hear this 3 words again..
adapting to this new change.. i hope adapt well n get used to it soon.. (:
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2:49 PM
Friday, February 19, 2010
many things happen recently..
some kind of arguement or debate or whatever u call it lah with luv... put in so much for this r/s i hope both of us cherished it.. i am so used to him that i realli dun wanna let this r/s go so easily.. so hard to find someone i realli luv.. i shud listen n heed jaslin advice.. dun always use breakup as a topic or issue to end problems with.. a gd r/s shud be sitting down n discuss whats the prob n solve it tgt.. haven seen luv since thurs 18feb 3.15pm till now 20feb 4.00am.. and still counting down.. will onli be meeting him on 21feb 4pm to go soccer with him.. realli mizing him so much.. wonder if he mizing me too.. but becoz his bro got into accident thats why we cant meet today and i understand that.. he very worried n sad over his bro accident.. he loves his bro soo much.. wanting to protect him soo much.. lets pray that his bro can have speedy recovery..
actually dint expect myself to luv him so much.. as days passed and time flies.. he can make me change to be better person n encourage me in so many things.. telling me my mistakes n make me felt luv again.. this few days i trying to adapt to new life n he knows that.. i hope this change that i made cud make us luv each other more.. at the same time miz each other more.. i enjoy being with him and i swear he is my one n only.. though he always assume or doubt me at times becoz of my playfulness.. but i know onli my actions can prove him that i realli serious abt him n this r/s.. i pray hard that god this time round is giving us the direction correctly n help us in whatever we are heading for.. i realli looking forward for the future..
going back sch soon on apr.. i have to cut down clubbing so that i wun be tired during the schling days.. planning for luv luv birthday too.. what surprise can i give to him? my sachok prince charming lehh.. hahaha..
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11:52 AM
Saturday, February 6, 2010
wahhhh... i know i kinda long dint blog.. heee.. sorry ah... busy with werk n bf.. yup that ritessss... have bf now.. but dint really blog lah.. sian of blogging.. last time is single then bo liao then blog.. now busy with werk also...
though sch is starting.. going for bridging course on apr n test on june, july starts sch.. its getting nearer and nearer... going back to sch le.. been like werking n playing for 1 yr sch grad from poly.. now need to step back into sch.. hope SIM is better than poly life... plus this time round got chantal study with me sehhhhh... we studying BSC BUSINESS!! weeeewuuuwittt... once finish n done we have our degree n off we go to further our careers!!!
time pass so fast lor.. all and all so many things happen 2009 and rite now 2010.. and i am turning 22.. numbers game! on my god.. soon 23 then 24... blah blah.. my god... faints... looking back at 18.. i found myself really doing things then 18 dun do.. now looking at myself at 22.. also doing things others dun do.. hahhaa.. think chantal noe what i mean..
this yr CNY falls on valentine day lehhhhh... hmmmm... what plansss huh.... really didnt expect this 2010-2014 i can spend valentine with sumone i luvvv.. finally after 'scanning' thru so many candidates!! i found 1 special one that cud get along.. clique.. laugh... cry... going thru up and downs.. encourage me to study too.. finally i found it... and daddy saw him too!!! after so many r/s i been thru this time round i am serious n will try ways n means to make it thru n work it out..
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8:30 PM
