Monday, March 30, 2009
never expect myself to be on the streets alone again... i went to hk myself... walk from mrt to office myself... so many flash back... i nv walk on hk street alone.... today... i walk alone... crying as i walk... thinking back.. just few months back things were not like today...
this is not what i want but i got no choice... then why he got a chance to chose between his reasons and me... i dont understand... after hk went macau... haiz.... second time i come i came alone too... i carry my tears with me... how i wish i nv had this process 3yrs back so that today i am not so disappointed and heart broken.... i NV so heart broken till such a stage that i myself got to hold on to my pride and live on to fight for what i want without sharing it with someone i truly love...
till now i dont bear to throw anything away... not a single item... why last time r/s i can throw away without feelings but now i cant.. can anyone tell me the difference...
why u give up so easily now...then why 3 yrs back when u chose to give up and then let me hold u back... why now i was not given any chance to hold u back...
i am sorry people for the emo(s) i been having.... memories keep me thinking back... if i dont say here i keep crying non stop while i type now...
BECAUSE OF YOU.....
she told
the story ...
11:05 AM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
eh... din take pictures of myself.. took surrounding pics instead...
will post up by tml then... hahhahaha... pan is who anyway??? pang bao hui??? or who???\
and hor... i nv bring cam only brought hp... haha... so pictures might be blur for sure...
hmmmm.... busy whole day... finally can go out tml... haha... SHOPPING!!!
she told
the story ...
9:03 AM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
my god.... busy day today... tml going to view apartments coz going to move soon!! current place too small!!! =)
shenzhen is getting so cold.. help i got no sweater.. i cant eat.. i cant slp... i become god liao..
haiz..
suddenly realise i can adapt any place fast?????? now i am single and alone... with no commitments and only myself to take care and think of...
think back... why i step into a realtionship that i thought that i can see the future?? i am disappointed of myself because the reason is unbearable....
i become to love myself more... love to make up... dress up... but what i want from this... to find new love or what? i am doing for myself but i am expecting for something... is this good or bad...
to let time heal everything i got a sudden urge not to go back singapore but i cant... i dunno what to say to family... they dint know i single now.. if they know they will be so upset.. and worried for me... i keep to myself for now... but for how long... to make so many people worried i felt regretful...
now... looking forward... everyone helping me to get over the wound.. but a wound will always leave a scar... everywhere is memories... and to my point of view memories mean to be kept and not forgotten... dont tell me u forget everything because u just lying to yourself.. like you say... you dont want to tear when think of me so i chose to carry the tears with me... so that u can smile... the tears i hide i nv want to say and because nobody wants to see me like that... get it over and done with... easy to say.. hard to do... mentally killing me to overcome it...
looking for mask now!!
she told
the story ...
10:19 AM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
TO ALL MY FRENZ,
my singapore number not in use so dont flood my sg lines.... i am in china right now and only can make calls in china but u all can call me or sms me.. i can still receive!!
my number is +86 15979125342
thanks and love!!!
she told
the story ...
10:53 PM
few hours back i was telling min i miz ham ham, and cutie min took video of him and post in her blog... when i saw the video i tear a while... flashing memories thru my brain.... i hope ham ham still remb me... and wun bite me coz min say ham ham bite her mum... so sorry... i apologised for ham ham...
though ham ham is naughty but he is very tamed... he loves to be touched and play with... and he is not that hyper active when u carry him... hahaha... most imptly he will not get car sick and he loves taking car rides... hahahah...
going 华强北 to shop for electronics... hahaha... hmmmm so will be offline soon... see ya frens!!
she told
the story ...
2:46 AM
Monday, March 23, 2009
what a miracle!!!
NORMALLY... i dont dare to be alone at my singapore home, not even slp alone too... but when i reach shenzhen... a suddenly growth in me... suddenly i dare to do things alone and by myself... nv have such a courage before to stay alone... in an 3-rm apartment at 35 floor all by myself!!!!
life is full of ups and downs... but who are the ones that walk pass such times with you...??
有些事要自己做，有些路要自己走， 有些祸要自己扛。
这是我要走的路，我爱走的路，我该走的路。
she told
the story ...
12:17 PM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
haiz... today kind of abit sian... and slpy coz ytd slp at morning 7am... hmmm...
suddenly i tot i feel empty and easy but why some things keep appearing in my mind..
why cant god let me feel better when i am in china...
why the images appear so often...
what does that means??
anyway i finally got a china number... +86 15979125342
but here the prepaid card abit sux coz cannot call international calls or sms...
down leh... everyday in msn only to get in touched with frenz in singapore...
i just washed clothes... got to go hang it to dry... tml onwards i will be alone in sz... hmmm...
what will life be?
she told
the story ...
10:24 AM
Saturday, March 21, 2009
wellll.... finally got a chance to update... hahhaa... i just came back today 3pm from spa which starts from ytd 1am... my godness... the spa here is powerfull.... it like 3 level spa... the resting area got dining and cushion sofas... like 200 sofas that big... with multi facilities.... pool table, computers, movie theater, tv, fruits counter.. so many things... cannot finish... everyone can try shenzhen... i bring u to spa... hahah tempted?????
now i know why shenzhen is man's heaven.... everything also have.... woman... spa... ktv... food... whatever u wan you will get....
=D
she told
the story ...
3:30 AM
Friday, March 20, 2009
FINALLY.... i graduated from NP... yeah... so happy... hmmmm... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... cannot explain the happiness in me!!
preparing to go shenzhen now... hehehe... take care everybody...
she told
the story ...
12:58 AM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
WAH...!! 3000HKD SUSHI MEAL... EAT BEFORE?????
my gosh... i just reach apartment... i just came back from a sushi meal that cost 3000 hkd... and most imptly we cant finish and got to bring back and eat!!! only 7 pax but the food for 14pax.... and the sashimi is 5times bigger than sgp sashimi size!!! can u imagine???
of coz i nv forget i am on diet... hahaha i eat a bit nia... so now still full and cant slp!! faintz...
wondering what all my dear frens doing? anybody mizing me now? haha...
she told
the story ...
10:12 AM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Finally i reached hk already... first of all i wan thanks nigel and chantal for sending me and laoda off to airport... *many incidents happen and lets just keep in our tiny brain and not talk abt it*.....
hmmmm... dunno why i think of blogging maybe because its a place for me to communicate with all my sisters and frens while i am overseas... so kind of fun too... and this is a new chapter of my life... many things happen for the pass 2 weeks... learning to be more independent and strong... i know everyone hope i am able to get over and search for a new goal in life...
yes i am going to change for the better... anyways... my hkd number is +852 90243134.. in case there is important things can call me or sms me...
talking about goals...
1) get myself slim down min. 6kg 1 month... from 2mar till now i am down by 4kg already... wahahha....
2) earn at least 3k so that i can save 1k... invest in clothes and makeover 1k.. bills and food 1k...
3) get my lappie battery replace.. =) coz my batt living on ac always now!!
4) help laoda settle all admin issues!!
even one day... i am missing some people and stuff... like my ham ham.. nv hear his running i kind of cannot slp... i miz min coz i know we cannot dun hang out... hahhaa... and i miz my bed and my tiggerss... dunnno my maid got keep them clean... haha.. i miz chantal too coz i feel like going gym again!! hahaha... also keep thinking of my wf.... dunno why i so worried abt her leh.. chantal help me take care of her... motivate her... there is also people i miz which i dun wanna say... keep it in my heart... if the people can feel means without my words they know i been thinking about them... haha...
frens and sisters... feel free to talk to me... hahah...
she told
the story ...
11:53 PM
