Monday, September 28, 2009
HAM HAM DIED TODAY......... :(
came hm and found my ham ham not moving...
cried and couldnt bear to let my ham ham go...
ah min came over my place to borrow kebaya and i told her this piece of news.. she is shocked also.. luckily she came and help me take away ham ham.. if not i am so lost coz i kol syaiful but he did not pick up at all.. told kadir and he ask me buy another one lor.. wth.... hmmm... so many memories with ham ham... so many chalets we been thru... so many ups and downs.. tears and joy... now he left this world before me.. i being left alone at home again with no companionship again.. i couldnt even slp tonight i guess although i am sooo tired..
before i got home i went to watch 'fame' with boss, alfian, syahrum, xingjun, jiabao... its a very nice dancing movie..! but after got hm saw my ham ham like that.. totally no mood again.. haiz.. think gonna go watch fated to love you...
love and miz my ham ham.. 03sept2008-28sept2009... r.i.p..
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10:43 AM
Sunday, September 20, 2009
today is first day of hari raya... many things happen....
1) a situation happened and its the same old situation happen 3 yrs back... 3 yrs back i made the decision to hold on and convinced the person that everything will work out fine and well and both of us can fight it thru.... everything going gd and we got our car and network but on 28feb09 both us had gave up the r/s... now same situation happen but diff guy but i made a diff decision this time round.. i chose not to convince the the person and respect the person decision.. and make my own decision.. regardless of what i always hope there is really a diff kind of malay in this society that wants to be successful in life.. but being successful is not by talking or not only monetary terms.. but also successful in r/s , in family and community.. i so afraid to love someone now is coz i more afraid to lose someone.. sometimes in life we have to learn how to let things go.. talking is easy... but to make it into actions its damm hard... its takes lots of courage and many decisions to had such an action...
what i said to you i hope u think abt it... reflect and move on with ur life.. my last chance to you was when i ask u at atm there.. after that i go up the bus i made up my mind.. like i had said i dont wish to force or convinced u anymore... i am very tired of it.. i have my way of thoughts.. hope we both move on and do what need to be done now, rather than just standing at a point whereby we dunno whats the future is all abt.. thanks for everything u done for me.. i will still continue to fight this career with u so long u want it and make it happen.. nobody can help u unless u help urself..u can still turn to me when u need help.. i will be glad to help you with whatever it takes..
2) my grandpa suddenly have fever and starts to hicups.. everyone so panic.. the moment i reach hm which is half and hr ago i keep monitoring his condition.. actually wanna bath and change and call up min to go drink.. but now so late le... actually i got alcohol at hm.. just feel like drinking at hm.. but tml got tuition at 11am.. everyday i worried my grandpa condition... faints...
3) was having blocked nose actually then i try blow out what its in my nose.. then suddenly my nose pain like kena punch like that then my whole forehead starts to pain also... soon i get dizzy which is now.. but trying to blog coz i dun wan disturb any sistas that is busy.. just feel like saying out every shitty thing thats happening..
4) i am no longer the jiayi that i am 3 yrs ago.. i need to change my thinking and my ways of handling things.. that includes my decision making.. dun ask me why i still single.. coz i simply dun wan a relationship to tie me down.. i need a career now.. i need time for myself.. i need to get back my own life.. hope all guys understand!!
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8:55 AM
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
hmmmmm...... couldnt fall aslp....
having cold chills and hot temp every now and then...
sick sick go away...
so... watching ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni to kill time..
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2:01 PM
Thursday, September 10, 2009
pengsss..
am having flu again.. stupid flu bug seems to be bugging me again... idiotic...
wanna slp also cannot.. nose like open tap.. using so much tissue paper.. sorry trees... so so sorry...
mizing all my baobeis... everyone so busy including me! diaozzz... kinda shagged... haha... but what to do... to achieve my dreams in 3 yrs.. i got to work double hard now... or even triple hard...
been slping on the floor this few days... find it kinda hard... coz my stupid bed spoiled and i got no chance to go ikea to get new bed even though its like 10mins walk from my house.. wth... and my fan like siao siao also.. wanna install aircon already.. cannot tahan sg weather.. its killing me!!
is the world gonna explode or what.. so damm hot.. i walk down to busstop only... perspire like as thou i go steam bath.. even faster than i step into steam bath n start perspiring leh...
and powerhouse also lor.. can they increase the number of aircons n fans?? its killing to just walk from entrance to dancefloor.. its packed n everyone perspiring too!! kinda miz hk n shenzhen life.. feel like leaving sg for a month again... hahha... enjoy shopping at hk and shenzhen.. especially clothings from hk..!!! i dun seems to like casual tops from sg fashion.. haha.. shit... am so into hk fashion clothes..
daddy birthday coming.. dunno what to plan for him.. bring him go dinner?? hmmm... wat to buy for him?? a dog?? woof woof.. haha.. he always wanted but he got no time for it... hahhaa... better not lata my ghim moh house becum zoo again..
looking forward for singyee birthday bbq.. been so long nv go bbq.. kinda miz it.. haha... and on her birthday its hari raya eve!! wheeeee... getting a black kebaya i think.. :) wonder how i look like in black kebaya... hmmmmm shall take many pics... and meeting up my malay frens wearing that!! haha
ehhhh... its like 8am in the morning.. and i cant fall aslp.. how sia!!??!!?? shit man...
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4:43 PM
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
been so long ago since i last blog... maybe nth much to blog... dun wanna blog neg stuffs... not too much of positive stuff too.. hahha...
hmmm... been going office almost everyday... kinda tiring but fulfiling.. looking at my fighters growing in numbers n strength... i pray that everyday they can have the motivation to fight...
also pray that the 4 single ladies enjoy our time now as SINGLE LADIES!! hahha... its time to enjoy!!! wahahha.. dun ask me why i so playful... maybe i last 3 yrs dun get to enjoy it thats why... hahah... gd n bad also lah....
rite now coping well with boss... respecting him as boss also... hope all of us fight our way thru n look forward for a bright future... :)
planning for year end chalet!! weeeeeeee....
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4:03 PM
